2016 Finale - December

          Hooooow is it already December?! The end of this year is already a blur. I am looking forward to it, but I am also looking forward to the beginning of 2017! I sure could use a fresh start. Anyone else?

          So, this month I did a decent job at the challenges. I was able to minimize my technology before bed, which absolutely helped with falling asleep. I don’t think the change was necessarily because of the technology itself, but because it forced me to start thinking about winding down well before I was actually laying down. I started getting back into some of my positive night routines, like drinking tea and meditating. All in all, it was a success, and I hope to retain this mindfulness moving forward.

          I did not go to yoga, but I did join a gym near my house. I love having a gym to go to, especially in the winter. I have had some success with regular gym workouts in the past, and would love to start up a routine again. I hope having this gym close to my house will make it easy for me to go. I have been enjoying it thus far, and look forward to checking out their fitness classes in the near future.

          This month brings with it a challenge that I am both nervous and excited for. This month, I will not use social media. I have deleted the social apps from my phone. The only related thing I will still be using is Facebook messenger, because I need to use it to organize my book club and other events. It’s funny how as soon as I decided to do this challenge I became terrified. I was worried that someone who needed/wanted to get a hold of me might not be able to, or that I would miss something significant. Perhaps I will, but I’m sure that all of the actually important things will find their way to me. Plus, it’s only a month. Regardless, it will be interesting to see how it feels!

            I’m particularly excited to cut my ties – even temporarily – with social media because the Netflix original series Black Mirror has me terrified of our relationship with technology. If you haven’t watched it, maybe you should. Also though, maybe you shouldn’t. I’ve never gone through so many emotions watching a show. It is beautifully done, and tells stories in a style that I greatly appreciate, but it is also hits terrifyingly close to home. Each episode is a cautionary tale about the future of technology/our relationship to it.

 

            With regards to my other goals for last month, namely the action points I laid out for managing my depression and anxiety, they are continuing to unfold. I realize that all of the things I hope to do/know will help manage my symptoms are not things that can be accomplished in a month. I am continuing to monitor and manage my experiences. One of the things I hope to do this month (with the help of a good friend) is go to the LGBT center in NYC and see what kinds of resources they have for folks like me. I look forward to it.

If anyone has suggestions for monthly challenges I should consider in 2017, please pass them along!

Thank you for reading this post, and perhaps all of my posts this year, and I’ll see you again in 2017! Have a wonderful holiday season, and end of 2016.

Love and gratitude,

E

Photo by Evan Robinson

Photo by Evan Robinson